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You ever just felt like your emotions are just running at 300 miles per hour? Like you say one thing but mean something else, feel one way but putting out something else. It all seems to happen at once. Negative thing after negative thing until you just cant take it anymore! Shit, Its like you love someone so much that when you realize that they may not feel the same way about you, you don’t know how to react! Ugh you try to regain control but you blackout and don’t care what you say or what you do…you don’t care how hurtful you can be to someone else because you feel like your dying on the inside…Fuck!!! You just need to hear something that your just out hearing so you take it upon yourself to tune out whatever else is going on until you get those words…You feel like your foundation is crumbling under you. Your support is just not there? I had that feeling today…and it scared me. And the thing that put me over…I saw fear, in the eyes of someone I love…Fear that I was going lose it…I just had to run. I couldn’t speak because I couldn’t think…all I could do was run…All I can do is see those eyes. I never made someone so afraid that they just couldn’t breathe. Still, still as stone. It was so overwhelming…I couldn’t swallow…I don’t even know how I got in front of those eyes, that’s the worst part…I just remember getting out because I made a promise…Im in love, and now im sure…